Oh if my voice could reach back through the past, I'd whisper in your ear, Oh darling I wish you were here.

Sunday, 16 August 2009

Woah

I've realised everything I've wanted has been right there

Infront of me, i just didn't notice

You could say i was self absorbed

I just think I was trying so hard to find it, that I forgot to look close to me.

I love you

Tuesday, 11 August 2009

it became to simple

It was easier than I thought, all I need to do is speak up

Be heard more often.

Become more confident

Believe in myself

I still have some way to go I guess.

speak up child

I've begun to realize how awkward things are becoming, partly due to my lack of communication. I need to start telling people, that they concern me, and how i am seriously worried for them. Yet I simply can't as I fear i might make the situation worse and offend them. Perhaps I just worry to much, I wonder...

Monday, 10 August 2009

change can happen can't it?


Sometimes I wish my mind could stop thinking, the constant thinking and analyzing, is driving me insane, I can't sleep properly, as all the thoughts flow through my mind.

'What if i did this, and didn't do that?'

So i have decided on this early summery morning, to start afresh put everything behind me I dislike, I worry about, even something I may just be unsure of. Instead I will think positive and see that I could learn from my mistakes, maybe even change?


Sunday, 9 August 2009

Just another storm in a teacup



The english summer, it rises and falls with my mood? One minute when i want to curl up and die the rain falls showering our little town. I have a sudden urge to run in it, re-enact a certain childhood dream taken from me by our self-obsessed culture. Then with a few hours, the clouds open and sunshine streams out, glimmering and radiating brightening up the mood of everyone, and maybe a even a rainbow forms, before it fades away. Summer almost seems to be over i guess, 3 weeks already gone, two weeks left, then I'm off to the peak district for a hiking holiday. Parents do come up with such exciting things don't they. But I feel that i might use the surrounding country side to take some photo's of the wildlife you find there, it might help to alleviate the boredom i suffer.