new year new hair

i finally dyed my hair a brighter red and will go and get the permanent dye later on this week.

i hope you had a lovely christmas i got pretty much everything i asked for a new sofa to go in my room from ikea, DVD's, a new black cardigan and money. 

my sofa

some bits and bobs

Then yesterday i hit the sales in h&m where i got a scarf reduced to £1 a cable knit jumper and some acid washed jeggings. 

my new buys. 

Happy Christmas ♥

Happy Christmas

I'm off to finish wrapping up presents, and to greet my family coming over. Then i'm off to my cousins for the day even if they do annoy me like hell. I hope you all get what you want and have a lovely day.

♥

I mean what can I say

i feel so vain i have sat at home taking photos of myself to pass the time so i though i might as upload them they are in black and white because colour does not suit me.

i like you!

don't make me chase you.

okay maybe one colour one, why my hair looks bright red i'm not sure

it's normally some copper thing.

christmas time ♥

well i'm bored ¬¬

i've been shopping every day since i've broken up

spent all my money on frappuchinos and meal deals from boots

got cold and snowy from walking around aimlessly

hopefully tomorrow will be better

i'm going up to london probably around camden with some friends

i plan to buy a travel card and jump on whatever bus train i see until i have to leave

i love the joys of being a child some times.

go away snow

i actually hate this stupid stupid snow some times

i was stranded at a friend's waiting for a bus to arrive for half an hour and then decided to trek home which took an hour and a half by the time i got home i looked like a snowman and couldn't feel my feet. i mean don't get me wrong i love playing in it and getting days of school but when it stops me getting places well then it annoys me like hell.

dont melt away

i woke up to find this lovely snow had settled on my garden and logged on to the school website to see if they had given us the day off, well they hadn't. So i trudged all the way slipping over way to many times, to find out we would be finishing again at half 10, my one lesson consisted of watching elf and eating chocolate, then off i went home again, what a waste of a morning. Afterwards though i went to my friend Vicky's house with Lillie and we watched Wild child for a bit and ate a load of junk food. Then it was time to trek into bromley for a bit and get a caramel frappuchino how yummy, and do a bit of last minute shopping so all in all it was an ok day ♥

let it snow let it snow

well it snowed today and it has kind of settled, this has put me into such a christmasy mood, i also made a chocolate yule log in food tech which i promised my friend Florence (http://hauteiscouture.blogspot.com/) she could have some more as after all it is christmas. My presents are all wrapped and ready to give out. The decorations are all hanging up and i can feel christmas getting closer. As I write this i have about 25 different layers on an i'm still frozen with Elf on repeat in the background it is my favourite christmasy film ever.

a festive yule log

Happy Christmas ♥

Let me go

Get me out of this country

i want to be a free-lance writer

my dream is to be the girl to who lives in the tent in the middle of nowhere surrounded by the people i love, i couldn't care less about money, as soon as i've finished all my studies i'm gone.

It's not a rush decision its a fact.

Canada or Australasia not sure which yet, but i'm going, living a life out of this quiet suburb with nothing quite wrong or right about it. It's to perfect for me. I need change.

I crave moment and instability ♥

time for a new beginning

i need a fresh start?

in the words of rianna safia beaton, 'be a happy emp henrie'

it's harder said than done my life seems to falling apart under my feet

i want to crawl into a hole and die some days

i have this bubble around me, it makes me feel invincible

i just hope it doesn't burst any time soon

i swear i am going mad

i talk to myself

i panic over nothing

Aur Revoir

Well it's been two years, and frankly I miss you quite a lot? You've always been there for me even though you did break occasionally. So it feels so odd to not have you. Am i that sad that i miss my braces? The metal thats has inhabited my mouth and inflicted pain upon me, yet i miss it.

Anyway it's the first of december, time for a fresh start. Out with the old and in with the new. I promise, no more silly childish henrie, I will look forward and try to see the good side of things. I need to achieve my hopes and dreams. I will pass duke of Edinburgh and I will visit Vietnam for World Challenge. I need to pass my GCSE's, try to complete a-level english, decide a degree to study at university. Oh and carry on swimming 6 times a week. Why is my life so stressful?

Plane Jane

I'm just your average girl, the girl whose never happy with her body, i hate my legs. I can't stand the sight of them. I comfort eat, to ease the pain of nothing? I am the girl with the hair thats always a mess, that is never straight. The tangled lions mane. I know I'm not perfect, but why should I complain, least I'm alive I have the most amazing friends and thats all I could really wish for.

Henrietta Anne Shorter

walking in a winter wonderland

winter ♥

i love the crunchy leaves and the fact you can see yourself breathing out, i love the cold mornings, and times spent in starbucks warming up. I love the exchanging of christmas presents, and how i meet relatives i don't see often, christmas dinner is something i wait all year for. I live for the sales, up on boxing day and i'm gone armed with my christmas money. My december is pretty jammed pack though, maths mocks sleepovers swimming competitions injections christmas shopping and coursework. I do wonder some times how I manage do everything.

a simple message

I clutched my phone and stared, my mood had been shattered, I prayed that this news simply couldn't be true, and that I had misunderstood. Then you confirmed by worst fears and my feet seemed to buckle under me, they couldn't bear the burden on my heart, and gave up. I wish i had given up trying a long time ago, it hasn't got me any further that I am now. I still stuck in the same vicious circle, with thoughts attacking me from every direction. You seem as if you simply couldn't care about what your actions do to me, how I can feel myself being ripped apart, every time you take a step further away.

Take a deep breath, tuck the water in my chest

Spending a week in cyprus doing 4 hours of swimming in a 50m swimming pool, and then another 2 hours of running and stretching for a week doesn't sound exactly enticing does it? But I loved it, I grew closer to people, you could say i had drifted from, I forged new friendships with some of the most hilarious people ever. I stayed up all night with my best friends gossiping and painting our nails, laughing at the xfactor. I saw my first ever hurricane, over the horizon of coral bay. It will one of the most amazing weeks of my life, and I wish it never ended. The prank calling the crushing of biscuits, the hiding behind curtains, the laughs. the romances, the gossiping, the sunbathing, the bingeing on food. It truly was one of the most amazing experiences of my life.

The first thing I saw every morning ♥

Thunder lightning tornado hail..

Ignore me

I ask people to ignore me most days, as I know I speak a load of shit, it's highly opinionated and often wrong, so please don't listen to me. No one else seems to thank-you :)

Help me.

I hate you. Deep down anger. Raw emotion, straight from the soul. You are not the person I thought you are. You crave attention and use people. You chew people up and spit them out, when you get bored. You are the worst best-friend ever. The nightmare that simply won't go away. I live in fear of your remarks, as they are the ones that deal the hardest blows, as i know you tell the truth, but i simply can't let go of our friendship. Attention seeking some may call it, i just think your a sad little girl who needs to grow up and witness the real world. Not EVERYONE loves you, not everyone loves you. If i was to tell you the truth, I think you would find that it fact it is completely the opposite and I hope to god when you realize you feel humiliated, and have no one to turn to. I really really hope you fail in life, as you make me sick to the core how you act, you spoilt little pompous princess. I say all this, but tomorrow I will go back to loving you, as i can't imagine life without you, and thats what scares me the most.

i want to forget you so badly

i wish i could float back in time, before the leaves began to fall, when the sun still shone, when we were as happy as could be, and i would halt time, the never ending summer with you, yet it wasn't to be we broke like a fragile flower, delicate yet messy at the same time, i simply miss the way you made me feel on top of the world. I wasn't prepared to come crashing back down. You have stolen part of my heart and I doubt I will ever get it back, it was lost when I got that simple message that has changed how i think for a long time. ♥

Woah

I've realised everything I've wanted has been right there

Infront of me, i just didn't notice

You could say i was self absorbed

I just think I was trying so hard to find it, that I forgot to look close to me.

I love you

it became to simple

It was easier than I thought, all I need to do is speak up

Be heard more often.

Become more confident

Believe in myself

I still have some way to go I guess.

speak up child

I've begun to realize how awkward things are becoming, partly due to my lack of communication. I need to start telling people, that they concern me, and how i am seriously worried for them. Yet I simply can't as I fear i might make the situation worse and offend them. Perhaps I just worry to much, I wonder...

change can happen can't it?

Sometimes I wish my mind could stop thinking, the constant thinking and analyzing, is driving me insane, I can't sleep properly, as all the thoughts flow through my mind.

'What if i did this, and didn't do that?'

So i have decided on this early summery morning, to start afresh put everything behind me I dislike, I worry about, even something I may just be unsure of. Instead I will think positive and see that I could learn from my mistakes, maybe even change?

Just another storm in a teacup

The english summer, it rises and falls with my mood? One minute when i want to curl up and die the rain falls showering our little town. I have a sudden urge to run in it, re-enact a certain childhood dream taken from me by our self-obsessed culture. Then with a few hours, the clouds open and sunshine streams out, glimmering and radiating brightening up the mood of everyone, and maybe a even a rainbow forms, before it fades away. Summer almost seems to be over i guess, 3 weeks already gone, two weeks left, then I'm off to the peak district for a hiking holiday. Parents do come up with such exciting things don't they. But I feel that i might use the surrounding country side to take some photo's of the wildlife you find there, it might help to alleviate the boredom i suffer.